I love being a Dame!

So, it's decided. I'm feeling a little bit better with myself lately. I've still been working a lot but with my time off I've been trying a littler harder to make myself happy.. I could try harder though. Money is such a hassle. I don't see how I can live with no money, yet when I make money it's gone like I didn't even have it... and I'm still living the same way??? Boyfriend is now 21. That's odd. I don't know if I really like it that much yet... or maybe it's just the fact that he always has a beer in his hand now.. I understand it's exciting to turn 21... but you'll be able to buy alcohol for the rest of your life now so who needs a drink every day? I hope I don't lose someone in the process.
It's confirmed that I'm going to start modeling. I'm determined. It's definitely going to include a lot of goals.. So I'm really hoping that I can accomplish them. And money... lots of money will be needed. Ha! So it will give me plenty of time. I'm hoping to get a good jump start at least for the summer though. I've been collecting along the way so it shouldn't be too expensive.... ha, who am I kidding? Of course it will be! Especially considering the prices of vintage clothing (since the best place to find it is online imo.) I'd love to sit here and blog about my plan to become successful in modeling, but I know how the game works, and there are way too many people waiting to just step on you and claw their way to the top. I'm even skeptical about sharing my ideas with a friend (that I adore) that is also wanting to start modeling.
Basic plan:

• Save money while improving my attitude and daily habits (smoking, eating, lack of exercise, etc)
• Buy all necessities: wardrobes including undergarments, makeup, hairstyling needs, SHOES
• Gain more knowledge along the way on Vintage hair, makeup, clothing, cars, and music. 
• Get more comfortable in front of someone else taking photos, and the camera itself. 
• Hopefully gain insight on who I am. 

On another note: I'm going to Disneyland for THREE days this weekend with park hopper passes, and a suit in the Disney Hotel! I'm going with my boyfriend and his more than generous family. They are great people and I'm so excited to play a part in this soon to be great memory. <3 I'm so excited!!! Not to mention, that means 4 days off of work! Hell yeah!

People have been driving me nuts lately, and they haven't even needed to say anything to irritate me. It's mostly all of the hypocrisy that has been floating around the kids in my age group. Things as simple as the style of clothing people claim. Like really, there's one person in particular that proves my point to a T. When I met him, he was cool, he was dark and devious, and had his own sense of style.. until he fell into what was popular (weather he tried or not).It's just too obvious that he lets other people's opinions change his own. Like I was saying, he used to fit into the "goth" stereo-type.. and then moved on to "punk"... and then moved onto "raver" and then moved onto "rockabilly/pyschobilly" ... and now looks like a total "bro". It seems to me that it only happened because of the people he was around at the time and that drives me nuts! It's too obvious who I'm talking about, and I kind of feel bad but I'm only speaking *typing* the truth as I see it so I'm just going to end it here. And people getting stupid ugly tattoos? What's with that?! All over their bodies? Does no one have self respect these days? :/ GAHH.
Now I'm just ranting so I better go get ready for work. *eyeroll*

xx