Damnit! There aren't enough bloggings about red hair!

This last week has been a pretty rough one. I just had 2 days off work after working 8 days in a row, for starters, and so much other crap has been happening along the way that I can't do anything about!

So, I've decided to start writing about this awesome Red Hair adventure since that's definitely what it has been the past few weeks.

Beginning: My hair had been black for quite a few months with frequent dye upkeep and I had tried going red so many times before, I'm thinking at least 5 times.. but it was never quite red. I had been letting my hair grow out and the black fade for about one month before I decided I was too impatient to wait any longer and I just went for it. I had researched for hours about different Red permanent dyes, when I finally came up with some positive feedback on a particular dye, and once I looked that up I found even more positive responses!! So I went up to a Sally's Beauty Supply (and if you don't know what a Sallys is, you need to find out ASAP. It's a great way to get everything in one trip and at low prices. Which is great for red!) and purchased two boxes of the dye, a new mixing bowl, and some 30 developer.  I decided to try one over the roots and black in my hair knowing it probably wouldn't affect the black, but was pleased with the color it turned my natural hair, without even having to bleach!

Actually going Red from black. Bleaching: You always know how fun it is to bleach your hair... T_T Spend an hour covering you're whole head and another hour to pull out all that dye, then about a week feeling like you've only got straw on your head. It's dreadful. I wasn't expecting much when I bleached my hair the next day after doing the red over the black, and to my surprise it came out pretty well. I bought a box bleach kit from a drugstore. I'm pretty sure it was  L'Oreal. I put as much of it as I could through out my hair using a tint brush and put a plastic bag on my head and released the air from it. Then waited... Rinsed it out and conditioned with the conditioner that came in the box. In this photo my hair is still wet so it appears slightly darker. It was very orange, but that was okay with me since I was going red anyways.

Red Dye: I still had one box of dye so a day later I went red. It was definitely a little light when it first came out, but was expected after bleaching. I was none the less satisfied because my hair was finally red! You can tell the red was definitely new because I was still rockin black eyebrows ;P .. looks a little odd. I've since then switched em up to match. :)

Red Fade: The red in the photo above faded quite quickly.. I believe 2 washes! Ouch! After all that time and damage to my hair I was bummed. :( So I decided to switch to another color I had been considering that was very similar. It turned out AWESOME. Just the color I was looking for. It has more of a blue, magenta hue rather than the copper, orange like before. 

More Fade!!: This problem had been driving me nuts.. especially because I couldn't find any good information... until I sat through, like, a 15 minute video that just so happened to bring up my concern. My hair was only fading in the lower back center of my hair, and the tips... but everything else looked absolutely great! Wtf? The solution I eventually came up with was Red Protein Filler for your hair. They have it in neutral as well. I haven't seen the full potential it has held but I decided to try it out. I put it on my dry, unwashed, faded hair only on the orange-blonde faded spots and let it sit for probably an hour. Then I put my regular dye over the protein filler and let that sit (also with a bag on my head).  I almost forgot to take a photo, so I took it mid-protein filler. The orange color was lighter than that even, poor lighting! The darker color is where I had applied the protein filler already:

When I went to wash it out, I did not use shampoo, I rinsed and massaged it all out and used a hair treatment cream that I also got at Sally's just to try. Intense repair for dry damaged hair. It was by Ion. I mixed a good amount of the RED protein filler (I also bought two of these they are only a little over $5 each) with the ion conditioning treatment and only used that. I let it sit for about 10 minutes, possibly a few minutes longer. I towel dried my hair then let it air dry. It felt better. Not extremely, but after all that it didn't feel like straw much any more, if at all. :) I was satisfied. I've been rocking the new color for about 3 days and have not needed to wash yet. If you think that's gross, please try having red hair. :) Luckily my hair doesn't get very greasy to begin with.

The color is very vibrant where I applied the filler so it's still a little brighter than the top. Depending on how badly it fades out (crossing my fingers hoping it won't fade too bad) will determine if I try the protein filler again or go darker. I have one more trick up my sleeve in case of extreme fade. But I'm not an expert and all of these tactics have been self taught over hours slaving away on research and trial and error experiences. My head has been just about every color of the damn rainbow and so far no color has been this much of an issue... But it's just too damn sexy. ;D

I'll keep you all updated. Especially about the filler and fade. <3

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THERE ARE TACOS ALL OVER THE STREET!!

What a crazy week it's been... It's been so much fun though. Work sucks as always but it's not too bad. Still getting a few shitty 4am shifts but oh well, better than 2+. So one thing that I've been thinking about lately is the meaning of pin up to me... and the way other women portray themselves. I've been getting sick of girls these days being so blunt that they don't even have any secrets.. I mean what's the fun in that? It's definitely not classy when you're sitting publicly and announcing who you're trying to bone.. especially when everyone knows there are other relations going on besides that. It seems like no one has any self respect these days.. or even just respect in general. People can be so rude and inconsiderate. Anyways, I'm strong on believing that being slutty is all bad news. Unless it's with your own guy/girl and it's mutual. Rambling.
I've been partying way too hard lately in excess. But it's been so fun!! :O It's nice to just get away sometimes.
Enjoying the red hair, but I'm trying to let it recoop a little before I continue to kill it so I'm starting to rock a fade. Oh well. I still think I miss the black on occasion but I think I'm just getting impatient with the growth rate.. :/ On another note, it's almost been 2 years that I've been with my dark prince and I couldn't be more in love. :) I'm glad things are just as good && I'm 110% comfortable. Can't wait till pay day! Well, guess I'll write more later when I think about it. :P

Red Hot && on Fire!

Update::  So I'm basically failing on keeping this thing as up to date as I'd like but I feel like I don't have much to ramble about... work is the same shit, just... well.. everyday. ha! Couldn't wait any longer to dye my hair, the fade and roots were driving me crazy!! I don't know how people can stand having poor looking hair. T_T Maybe it's just me being the perfectionist I am though. Anywho, I've tried to go red so so so many times with no avail... until now! I think I'm some what satisfied with the color, at least for the time being... My hair sure can take a beating. If I do decide to change it, I may go for a more magenta hue rather than orange or I might just find a dark sultry red. ;) But it's summer time and red is HOT, despite how popular it may be. I'm just glad this time my hair is a little lengthy and the color is right. ;) However I get the feeling some people I know thought they were original in having red hair... HAHA!
Gosh, I feel like such a sassy bitch sometimes and I love it. <--- perfect example :x
Ink-N-Iron was fun! It wasn't exactly what I was expecting and I definitely wish I had brought more cash along. SO much merch, and the beautiful Queen Mary.... not to mention all the lovely cars and vintage guests! <3  For now this is all I can think to write... hopefully I'll be posting again soon with photos!

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MONKEY MANNN!!!!!

June already. Time is really just flying by these days. The Ink-n-Iron Festival is this weekend, and I've already bought my tickets! Yay! I'm so excited.. I'm definitely thinking of finding a piercer if there will be any (hmmm?) on board and getting one or two more. :) I think I've found a cute outfit but I'm still not sure if I'm going to settle yet. The corset is a definite must though! The boyfriend and I will be carpooling with a friend or two up to Longbeach... hopefully the people there won't be as rude as the last time I went up North. *spitting noise* 

I miss you Mom.
I've been so over my house lately, but the other option of wasting gas isn't that appealing either. Ugh. I need to change my life. :/ 

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Wow, What a week!

So I worked like crazy last week, even a 4am shift (meaning I got up at 3am) so I'd have 4 days off over the Friday - Monday weekend...  I went to Disneyland Friday morning and left Sunday afternoon..Then I had to work the next 3 days. I didn't get Monday off >.< So lame.  Anyways Disneyland was freaking awesome. There was always so much stuff going on, and the constant playing music just set the mood for a smile. We ate at every normal meal time, and all the meals were huge! The Mexican food sucked though, nothing like Filiberto's :) . The boyfriend tried something called a Monte Cristo for lunch one day.... It was INCREDIBLE. O.O I wish I had gotten it. So the last night we were there, we stayed out pretty late in the park and went on quite a few rides... Some how in the mix I had lost my wallet. :( With everything inside of it [at Disneyland!Ugh NowI'mnevergoingtofindit!! >.<"] including $180 and both of our park passes! We searched absolutely everywhere and couldn't find it, or even imagine where it could have happened. We were screwed. So we went and made a claim at the Lost & Found and sulked the rest of the way back to the hotel. It was about 1- 1:30 am at that point and we were exhausted, since we woke up at 6:30! The next day we were too beat to wake up with the rest of the fam, so we stayed back and slept [MUCH NEEDED!!]. When we awoke hours later I had a voice mail saying they had found a possible wallet...!!! It was mine and had everything in it! Woohoo! So amped! We didn't even go on any more rides that day, just shopped, and made it home just quick enough. :)
So Since then I've been working, yesterday was my day off and I'm going to work in a few hours from now. Excited about Ink-N-Iron coming up in June! Definitely going to try to buy tickets as soon as I get my new card. :/
Things have been going well lately, I hope they continue to .. :)

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Decided.

Today already started off as one of those "decided" days. I'm tired as fuck but have to go to work in about 5 mins. Ugh. As soon as I woke up, I knew I needed to go back to the mall to get those freaking cute shoes I saw. Which I did. buy one pair get the second for $10. Sounded good to me. Even though I still spent 50. Hah.  I forgot to mention in my last post that I've been really irritated with the fact that I haven't accomplished the red hair that I've desired. It always comes out too pink, or too orange. Well, not this time! For I have found a reliable (or so I've heard) red dye that won't cause me to go bankrupt. So, as soon as my hair gets a bit longer, I'm going for it. Thus meaning I am not re-dying my hair black anymore! :p

Bleh, off to work

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I love being a Dame!

So, it's decided. I'm feeling a little bit better with myself lately. I've still been working a lot but with my time off I've been trying a littler harder to make myself happy.. I could try harder though. Money is such a hassle. I don't see how I can live with no money, yet when I make money it's gone like I didn't even have it... and I'm still living the same way??? Boyfriend is now 21. That's odd. I don't know if I really like it that much yet... or maybe it's just the fact that he always has a beer in his hand now.. I understand it's exciting to turn 21... but you'll be able to buy alcohol for the rest of your life now so who needs a drink every day? I hope I don't lose someone in the process.
It's confirmed that I'm going to start modeling. I'm determined. It's definitely going to include a lot of goals.. So I'm really hoping that I can accomplish them. And money... lots of money will be needed. Ha! So it will give me plenty of time. I'm hoping to get a good jump start at least for the summer though. I've been collecting along the way so it shouldn't be too expensive.... ha, who am I kidding? Of course it will be! Especially considering the prices of vintage clothing (since the best place to find it is online imo.) I'd love to sit here and blog about my plan to become successful in modeling, but I know how the game works, and there are way too many people waiting to just step on you and claw their way to the top. I'm even skeptical about sharing my ideas with a friend (that I adore) that is also wanting to start modeling.
Basic plan:

• Save money while improving my attitude and daily habits (smoking, eating, lack of exercise, etc)
• Buy all necessities: wardrobes including undergarments, makeup, hairstyling needs, SHOES
• Gain more knowledge along the way on Vintage hair, makeup, clothing, cars, and music. 
• Get more comfortable in front of someone else taking photos, and the camera itself. 
• Hopefully gain insight on who I am. 

On another note: I'm going to Disneyland for THREE days this weekend with park hopper passes, and a suit in the Disney Hotel! I'm going with my boyfriend and his more than generous family. They are great people and I'm so excited to play a part in this soon to be great memory. <3 I'm so excited!!! Not to mention, that means 4 days off of work! Hell yeah!

People have been driving me nuts lately, and they haven't even needed to say anything to irritate me. It's mostly all of the hypocrisy that has been floating around the kids in my age group. Things as simple as the style of clothing people claim. Like really, there's one person in particular that proves my point to a T. When I met him, he was cool, he was dark and devious, and had his own sense of style.. until he fell into what was popular (weather he tried or not).It's just too obvious that he lets other people's opinions change his own. Like I was saying, he used to fit into the "goth" stereo-type.. and then moved on to "punk"... and then moved onto "raver" and then moved onto "rockabilly/pyschobilly" ... and now looks like a total "bro". It seems to me that it only happened because of the people he was around at the time and that drives me nuts! It's too obvious who I'm talking about, and I kind of feel bad but I'm only speaking *typing* the truth as I see it so I'm just going to end it here. And people getting stupid ugly tattoos? What's with that?! All over their bodies? Does no one have self respect these days? :/ GAHH.
Now I'm just ranting so I better go get ready for work. *eyeroll*

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*sigh*

I don't know how to feel these days, I'm definitely STILL in this rut... Ugh, I'm so over it, too. Amongst other things. *groan* Too much shit has been going on lately and I'm tired of neglecting myself. I need me time, but can't get any due to my work schedule and home life. How am I even going to change things?

Mother's day sucked. I miss you so much, Mom, I never expected it... and I can still barely believe it. It's one of the worst feelings I've experienced so far. I wish I could say it would go away :/ or better yet, I wish you could tell me that. I think about you every day. More than rainbows and butterflies.

Everyone is either a fake or a hypocrite these days. I'm sick of it.

Anyways I should Probably try to go to sleep, next to my passed out boyfriend, since I have work again tomorrow.

I miss you.<23

Sorry for the ramblings, too many thoughts, not enough words.

xx

Be Happy!

Today... Actually, the past three days have been the most hectic I've experienced in a while. Two of them were my days off and I've been stressed out of my mind. I feel like I can barely stand myself, let alone anyone who I come into contact with... So my attitude has been a little poor in result... But, fuck, I'm only human, and why should I have to put up a facade just to please other people? especially when I'm unhappy... Which leads me to my next issue... Is it really asking too much to use some common fucking sense and logic? People are clueless.

I need to figure out a good sleeping schedule that allows me extra stuff, working makes life seem robotic. Thankfully the sun has been shinning bright and I've had awesome weather by the beach.

Hung out with my bestie and My dark prince today around the pool with a few smokes. I'm sending good thoughts her way in hopes of a better tomorrow. :) the pool was great and I'm worn out. Speaking of which, I'm off to some animal crossing wild world in bed (guilty pleasure), then a trip to dreamland!

Ps. Most of the time I completely regret getting my boyfriend into WoW. Just a last thought.

xx

In the desert, on a horse with no name....

Lately I've decided to start blogging again since Tumblr wasn't really my particular style for blogging. So this blog will basically be day to day ramblings, life through my eyes, or simply, my thoughts.

So much shit has been changing, so quickly, the past couple months. Since my mother passed away and I got a car of my own I've been able to acquire a job and maintain 8 hour shifts daily... But it seems like that's all I've been doing and it's getting a little old. Especially when I don't even have enough time to clean up my own room, or do laundry... unless it's late at night... speaking of which, I should probably go get that....

Anyways.. Having a car is awesome, but gas is freaking ridiculous.. such an unfortunate time to first get a car... because of course I want to drive it everywhere >:D   Working in the bakery is pretty inspiring. Once I start saving some more money I'm going to buy my own decorating tips, and practice at home. I think I'll be able to pick it up. :) Hoping, anyways. Anyhow, I should be in bed. Goodnight.

xx